life in general

secrets, lies, deceit..

all these are all part of the society. no point denying and no point avoiding it. let's face reality man. that's the way it revolves.. i just asked ross baby a question, and his answer reali brought me back to reality.

yea, reality.

the thing that all of us hate. at least, i do.

thank you for being so honest.

reality scares me so much. all my life, i've bee bumbling along, thinking life is literally a bed of roses. but that's it. the dreaming stops here.

tonight i feel so cold. no, it's not only because of the weather, but because how this world is..

my mum always always taught me to have compassion, and i've tried. but sorry, the world is a war zone. at least that's how i've felt, but tried to show otherwise. maybe i feel like tt onli at this instant, and all will be better again tomorrow.

i guess what keeps us all holding on is HOPE.

tt's it. hope.

hope that people will change. hope that tomorrow will be a better day. hope that life is worthwhile afterall. hope that all my tears would have dried everytime after i've cried. hope that it'll stop hurting. hope that i'll pass. hope that i'll survive. hope that others will be happy.. hope, hope, hope..

i've always pitied the people around me, and i feel hurt and pain for them too.

life's like tt sometimes i guess. "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade", is what i always tell people. but try telling tt to myself.. *shakes head*

it's never gonna work huiling.

never.

*failed driving

but thanks still go out to my darling ross for making an effort to be there, and to my dad and mum, and my sis, for their support. and for sam tay and angeline, for ur concern. *sighs*

sorry to disappoint u all. reali sorry..
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dearest ross baby,

i duno how to help you now, but i just wanna tell you that i'm here for you, no matter what. whatever the outcome, whatever ur decision, know that i'm always supporting you. if u wanna share, i'm here. even if u dun wanna share, i'm still here. and i always will.. i duno how to put this across, but in simplified terms, i love you and i'll stick with you, through good and bad ya? (:

it's kinda unfair that u have to go through what you're going through now, but there's always a lesson to be learnt from everything i guess. so, treat this as a learning process.. everything will blow over, and ..

everyone will be happy again. i hope.