better?

i'm getting used to typing your email and ur password le. finally, i can enter into this blog without having the screen tt says wrong password or no such email popping out..

i passed my grade 8 exam. thot it was a big deal, but at the end of the day.. is it reali such a big deal? ya.. i know that not alot of people pass at their first attempt and i'm thankful to God for helping me (i reali cannot suffer another blow like this during this time), but at the end of the day.. is it a success?

do all these count for something?

was watching tv just now. a short 10 mins, wherebe the guy declares his love for the girl in the most romantic way (ya, typical taiwanese film) and it got me thinking once again, wth is going on in my life man?

all these is never gonna happen in reality. never. love isn't as depicted in movies, shows or whatsoever (if it was, mediacorp and all the hollywood directors can go bankrupt already).. in reality, love is a whole lot of complications. a whole lot.

maybe that's why people like love/romance titles as well as shows and books so much. knowing that they can never attain it in real life, they just decide to imagine themselves as the protagonist for awhile.. and imagine they're the ones being kissed..

which brings us back to the common problem of reality. it sucks.

tt's why the hollywood and disney people are always gonna earn big bucks, thanks to suckers like us. seeing that other people attain the love that we can never get, kinda makes us feel better, even for awhile (ya man. we sound like big-time losers.. at least i do. but join the gang man..). they make us relate to the character.. so much so that when the character cries, we feel sad, if they're happy, we feel glad too..

but thanks ar. that's as far as it goes. that's why after watching all this love shows or reading romance novels, it just makes me want to run to my bf (if i had one at that point in time) or just get loved in some way. sick, but true.

that's why, i'm avoiding those at ALL costs now. if not, i'll end up crying again. sigh.

huiling ar huiling, what are you doing man? what?

oh well, i believe that someday, i'll reali cheer up. i'm better than i am 2 days ago, but still not the best. that's so not gonna happen man. hope he's doing better though (which i know he will, with his countless frens by his side)..

life's sometimes not that sucky, we just got to bear with it's tempraments for awhile, and let nature take it's course. ya, that's it. let nature take it's course.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference. -Reinhold Niebuhr