lost.

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you gotta learn how to stop ignoring me and onli talk to me when u feel like it. sigh. u'r stressed about other things, and when u do them, u reali neglect me. sigh. i dun get sms-es from you, i dun hear from you, you dun even want to call me lor.

sometimes i think u'r better of in camp, where u have no idea what is going on with ur insensitive frens and ur whole life revolves around.. me.

i mean, i'm seriously losing my patience over here, but i'm still trying to be a nice gf by not further stressing u out and telling you this. sigh. but you reali take me for granted. u always give me chances to run to other people when i have problems, simply because u refuse to be there for me, but u expect ME to be there for YOU.

i also duno what u want anymore. it seems as though when everything is fine and dandy, u want me. but when its not, u choose to tackle the problems instead and totally ignore me. what am i man? i'm just an insignificant person. other people would reali treaure the time i set aside for them lor, but not you. you always take it as that i'm a parasite tt's forever dependent on you.

but, why can't u think of it as me making time for you? it doesn't matter anymore la. u dun treasure me when i'm by ur side, so if i go, dun regret. i reali reali wish i'll get injured in CAmbodia, i dun care if the devil uses my words or not, but tt would at least make ken notice me more, i think. ya, u may think tt i'm desperate for this guy's attention, but no, i'm not.

i just want him to wake up his idea and reali think about who reali loves him the most. i guess he'll never understand that lor. his computer is much more important to him and although i'm flying off in just a few days, he's more interested in his frens, his com etc.. not me.

why? first he says he loves me, but he doesn't show it. den he says he doesn't want me to go, but he isn't making an effort to make me stay either. so what's ur point? i talk to u on msn, u always ignore me. i ask u to call me, you're tired. i can't keep this up any longer lor.

sooner or later i'm gonna go mad just trying to be a nice gf to you.

to you, i just can't see reason, and to you, its vice versa huh. i reali duno what we're in for man.

hold on tight, its gonna be a bumpy ride..