Sunday, September 14, 2008

Push and pull.

I want to talk but I don't know how.
Even when I know what the answer is, I still want to ask.
I think I'm self destructive when I'm down. Shit.
My heart is pushing and pulling in all directions.
I feel lonely when I can't reach you.
I hate this feeling knowing there's somebody else.
I suddenly want to go back to camp.
I want to tire myself out so I won't think about such things.
But if I don't do anything nothing will happen.
I really feel like fighting.
But I'll give myself one more week to talk things out.
Then I'll see how from there.
Once again, I feel destructive.
I need to vent somehow.. damn.

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